last month was tough

I dealt with the intial loss so much better this time having kiersten to cling to. The holidays were tough. all throughout thanksgiving I kept thinking about how I would have had the big ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby. Through Chirstmas I just kept thinking about how we should have been feeling the movements by then. In 2009 I am feeling more positive about the loss. I didn't go through the anger or obsession as I did with my first pg and mc, but i am dealing with how to be a stronger woman now and I look forward to the journey thorough another pregnacy one day-when is up to God cause I am not in charge of it anyway!

holidays

the holidays are so tough on me this year. i want to enjoy kiersten so much but it hurts to miss my angel that I lost in september...........
this holiday season is so bittersweet.

AF

Last month was a tough one for me. I hate the first period after a mc but this second one seems to hit home just as much for me as the first one ever did. DH and I discussed with this baby announcing our pg at thanksgiving and then we should even know the sex of the baby. Everytime I think of my period being here I miss my baby. It breaks my heart to know that I am not pregnant. As far as ttc goes we haven't been careful but I am not temping or doing OPK like I did with Kiersten. We truly are trying to leave this is GOd's hands. It just hurts so much right now to miss my second angel that went to be with God.