last month was tough

I dealt with the intial loss so much better this time having kiersten to cling to. The holidays were tough. all throughout thanksgiving I kept thinking about how I would have had the big ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby. Through Chirstmas I just kept thinking about how we should have been feeling the movements by then. In 2009 I am feeling more positive about the loss. I didn't go through the anger or obsession as I did with my first pg and mc, but i am dealing with how to be a stronger woman now and I look forward to the journey thorough another pregnacy one day-when is up to God cause I am not in charge of it anyway!